i'm tired. i've been feeling so tired recently, all the time. i've got a terrible headache too. but i've got so much on my mind, i can't get to sleep. so i'm sitting here, by myself, watching america's next top model. they're showing all the stupid stuff that weren't on the actual show. they really are, stupid stuff. and i mean s.t.u.p.i.d. /:

chinese paper was more difficult than the last one we took, in june. ugh. i do hope i move up, at least one grade, to help my absolutely sucky humanities and science. all my other subjects fell one or two grades during prelims too, which is absolutely sad, and difficult to pull back up.

robbie william's new songs are kind of cool. not the kind of music i usually like, but they're cool.

i watched jesse mccartney on youtube again, yesterday and today. (: there were some music videos i've never seen, and then old episodes of summerland. i wonder if there is a dvd for summerland. its a great show, too bad it wasn't that big a thing and got cancelled. ohwells.

amos is leaving for..somewhere, tomorrow. i guess i'll miss him. haha.

yawn.

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it has been a tiring day, which started at 7plus in the morning. had tuition with the girls at 8.30 in the morning. and then, math tuition at home after.

jaclyn and charsiew came over for lunch. my maid didn't throw away expired pizza crusts, and we almost had it for lunch. it was already one month past the expiry date! grr. if we did eat it we could have gotten food poisoning!

we went to church, for ignyte service. there was some special event held and we were made to sit on the floor. ohwells, haven't had that kind of funny thing in awhile. i saw cherie today, after so long, don't know if she recognises me, but she's so pretty! i think she's become prettier since she came back from studying. (:

dinner at fish&co today with the family and xiao-yi&family, including megan! (: imm has changing rooms, but there's only one changing room for each toilet and if the mums are in there breastfeeding the baby they could take like an hour, and what if another mum needs to change the baby, which takes about 5 mins? they should have more diaper changing rooms.

ohh i'm tired, keeping sam company until samlee calls.(: i'm nice right?

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i feel like i haven't blogged for really long, but its only been a couple of days. everyday, at certain times of the day, i would go into daydream mode, and think of everything i want to post about, but when i get on the comp and start typing, everything is lost. ohwells.

i know i've been telling alot of people, but there's this very funny thing that happened. its funny to us, others may just go ouch. my mummy fractured her right second toe, cos amos stepped/kicked it. accidentally. but its so bruised the whole toe is purple, and slightly displaced towards the right.

both of us laughed when we got the xray and report. and i've got no idea why. my mum just went " oh no, really fractured leh!" and started laughing, so i laughed too. no doubt everyone in that xray centre thought we were crazy. who laughs at their own fracture?

studied at macs today, with sam and candice and qingyuan, cos we met him when we were there. sorry jaclyn, for pangseh-ing you, but everything's better now right? (: i seem to be spending alot of time at macs. on wednesday, with jaclyn and sarah, we were there for six hours! i've watched the macs ads so many times i think i know them by heart, which girl will do ballet in the sky, and when the guys will fall down during snowboarding and stuff like that. crazy huh?

its my neighbour's baby's first month today, and we had no idea she had already given birth. we knew she was pregnant, but we didn't know she delivered already, and we didn't know for a month. how lousy are we at being neighbours?

i've got tuition tomorrow, with the girls, early in the morning. i guess i'll have to sleep early then.

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daddy:
did you realise how inconsiderate you were to close all my stuff without asking? and then accusingme of not knowing how to manage time although i made sure i got my priorities right before starting on the thing? and i hardly spent 5 mins on it! you just jumped to conclusions so quickly, which pissed EVERYONE off. AND you called uncle james, making him feel bad, when its got nothing to do with him at all! if you link it all the way back, there wouldn't have been a problem if you had left my stuff alone! i hope by now you've realised how freaking unreasonable you have been. ugh.

amos:
i am so, so sorry. i was wrong to have vented my anger on you. but you were scary, little man. and you screamed at ahma. that was, i've got to say, way disrespectful.

uncle james:
sorry you had to get involved in this mess. anyway, i still managed to get it done, before he bit my head off, so i hope you're pleased. (:

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blogger website was retarded last night, it did not let me access!

i just came home from lunch with my family and amos's godparent's family too. (: had cafe cartel. i love cafe cartel. mummy bought us the cutest candies ever! its actually a lollipop, but its shaped like a pacifier with the piece of plastic attached to the stick. and when people look at us, it looks like with got GIANT bunny teeth, but the lips are of bright colours, so of course it doesn't look real. it was fun though, snapping pictures and laughing away, with the cafe cartel staff laughing too.(:

had tuition this morning with the girls, and am going to have tuition again later in the afternoon. sorry sam and jaclyn, for being late, and leaving early.

oh i suddenly remember yesterday there was this sec3 boy who threw water off the fourth level in school, and it hit sam and i. and it got on my face too! dammit, the boy's such a coward after pouring he went to hide inside whilea few of us stood below and screamed at him. sam calls him hum ji (sp). he's a jackass and an idiot.

study time! or i feel like napping actually. haha.

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sam, glad i could help, just a little. and let it blow over alright, you cannot afford to lose concentration. just awhile more! (:

i saw something really wrong today. its not my fault, seriously, but eew, gross. grown boys shouldn't do that sort of stuff in public, even if its fun--for guys. but whatever. ugh.

practical today was pretty much doable. and mrs chew is helping me so much!(: thankyou.

i'm watching prison break now, i like this show, and i just saw little scofield. he's so cute! his mum just died and he was supposed to be sad, but he looked so cute. i like little scofield better than the big him! and young burrows is better looking that old burrows too. i AM crazy!

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mrs chew is probably my saviour. like, the ultimate saviour.
there's just so much i learnt from her today, i'm more confident for tomorrow's paper than i was for yesterday's.

to all of you taking science tomorrow, all the best! remember all your stationary and entry proof! (: [shakes all of your hands]

to "you know who" on my board, piss off. you're a freaking coward and you know it. i know its hard for you to understand that people have lives, since you don't. but you need to eff off. you're so pathetic you'll probably never have a life, but you still owe the two girls an apology, and russel.

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tomorrow's my first paper, and on the scale of 1-nervous, i'm extremely nervous.

but i've got jesse mccartney blasting, that should calm my nerves a little, as it did this morning in school.

mrs chew's going to help us in chem. i'm sorry for my lack of judgement everyone, but i can see claerly now. shit, that's so corny. but seriously, during these desperate times, i will owe her big big time.

everyone: STUDY HARD, WE'VE ONLY GOT AWHILE LEFT! AND WE'LL BE RID OF YELLO&BLUE!(:
LOVE YOU ALL!

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happy birthday peanut!

whole post for you! on your special day. (:

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mummy's coming home tomorrow morning! and i'm picking her from the airport!(:

i went to vivo city. again. with sam and samlee and peanut. its a fun place, we had sushi too. thankyou peanut for paying for my sushi! (:

well, i've had two days off studying, and its high time i got back on track again.

sam, i love you!
jaclyn, i love you!
and guess what, i'm going to make these amazing presents, that you'll never forget, but i can only start working on them after o's. but still, presents!(:

shit i'm crazy.

miss toh, if you ever come across this, you're my teacher, not my friend, and you've never failed to remind me of that, so teachers don't get the privelage, like my friends do, to read my blog. thankyou.

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i miss mummy! one week's a long time!

i took a day off stuying today, well half a day actually, caught a movie. i know you all think i'm nuts to be watching a movie at this time, but i did, i needed a break.

went to vivo city. its cool, shall go there again after my exams. i don't know who arranged what, and saiful and fairul ended up coming along. and i found myself walking quicker and quicker. i don't know why i should still be avoiding although the whole thing has blown over. so we wanted to watch you, me and dupree, but cheryl and fairul were only 15! haha. i told sam what valuable lesson i learnt.(: so we ended up watching scoop, its not bad though, worth watching. hugh jackman is freaking tall!

met yuquan on the bus on the way home, and was talking to him about how i failed, and how he was desperate after midyears. why, oh why did it take me this long to become desperate? anyway, nice talking to you, yuquan. (:

sam, i don't know what to say, but please, don't let anything distract you. this is really important to you right? jiayou!(:

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what kind of guy makes two girls wait for him for over three hours? and doesn't bother to call, or even pick up their calls, and even rejected their calls. if i were the one who was waiting, i wouldn't have waited at all. well, he's an asshole anyway. good thing russel still came. and cheryl, you got your answer. there that's volleyballer right? (:

did only a little math today, lost my acsi paper, and spent time talking meaningfully.(:

and sam, jaclyn, just two more weeks. keep it up alright, we'll show all of them!

i've still got my movie date with cheryl tomorrow, and she's got a date after mine too!

urrgh, study time again. after my show!(:

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shout out to samantha chan,
hope you've already cleared things up.
remember you're the one driving the bulldozer alright?
and have fun at your after 0's job!(:

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school, is torture. pure torture, of the "put you under so much pressure until you crack" kind of torture. practice papers for every single subject, every single day. before you can get one done, there are already two more. and i still had to write a chinese letter on how school is good for you, and so are exams. its some dumb paper we had to do.

i guess we could still have fun with the girls though. for one, i "tied sam down". i beat glenn and joshua to become her boyfriend no.2. and we had the funny conversation, while marking math papers. i can't remember the whole thing, except that we said
"why 47.7?!"
"i got 46.7"
and "yongtao!"
at the same time, and then with the whole snap snap snap. fun laughing times.(:

amos is done with his psle, that lucky piece of shit. he had friends over in the afternoon, and i dozed off in front of them. how embarassing. while he's having fun, i'll be mugging like crap. just less than a month more, 20-odd days i think.

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ugh stupid haze is so horrible. i'm never going to be able to leave the house in this condition. the lower level of my house is not airconditioned, and the balcony as no windows to close, so the haze is kind of coming in, and its making cough.

sorry sam, and jed, i couldn't make it just now. i promise i'll make it up to you alright?

on the bright side, megan's here. she's been a handful, but also fun. she's staying over too, while xiao-yi and uncle james are at some wedding in malaysia.we'll see who'll wake up and feed her tonight.

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i just completed one english comprehension, including summary, a biology paper one, and a chinese formal letter writing since the last time i posted.

i've got a splitting headache and am going to drop dead the second my head hits the pillow.
but i got to say i love my dad, he stayed up with me while i did my work. thanks!

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i have a question. a question i've told many people i want to know about, but a question no one can answer, or they simply could not bother with funny stuff like that. whichever way, can anyone tell me why do actors that are supposed to be high school kids are more often than not way to old to be in high school. by way too old i mean 20 and above. we know for a fact they're supposed to be about 16-17 in the shows, since its high school. but here are some examples of actors in "high school":
1. chad michael murray, bethany joy lenz(one tree hill); 25
2. hilarie burton, sophia bush( one tree hill); 24
3. jesse metcalf(john tuvker must die); 28!
4. ashley tisdale (high school musical, tsl); 21
5. marshall allman (prison break); 22
6. drake bell, josh peck (drake and josh show); 20

ok, that's enough. you must think i'm a freak. i've got tonnes of work to do over the weekends. and i mean tonnes. for a full list of homework, check out sam's blog. she's got it all written down! i think chinese and english are the worst! i need to get down to even more studying than i am now. i mean with the homework load, its impossible to squeeze in any revision time. or study. its just homework. somehow, homework doesn't count for studying. ohwells.

even the teachers have arranged dates with us. official dates. with day, time and location too. ugh. on monday i've got mr chan, tuesday mrs wong, wednesday miss thio and goodness knows what else. its no wonder i'm going crazy and wondering about actors' ages.

the primary school is now really strict. well, so is the secondary school but its just so weird. i'm so absolutely sure everyone misses mrs tan.

people of 646, i know we all want a day out, but you ALL are busy, busy, busy people! its so hard to get one day, just one day that everyone can make it!

i've got to get back to doing some dumb compre about dinosaurs. ugh.
jiayou, sam and jaclyn! i know you want to bulldoze that one ass flat don't you? (;

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jaclyn, i'm fast aren't i? i wanted to get on here as soon as possible so i wouldn't forget what happened, or what's happening. its funny stuff. the neighbours upstairs are doing something with their day curtains. you know, those while a little translucent ones? those. they hung it outside their window and because the curtains are long, we can see them from our house too, but only from the toilet windows.

amosw as the first so see it, and he came into my room where jaclyn, shaun and i were doing our work. he told us he didn't dare to shower because he could see the white cloths floating around (because of the wind). i went in to see what it looked like, but it was nothing much. just pieces of white cloth, dancing in the wind. haha.

amos then decided to shower in the master bathroom, but then he saw the pieces of cloth again, and this time, because there were two windows in the master bathroom, the curtains were sort of coming in, a little. i went to check the master bathroom as well, and on the way in i managed to boo amos as he did not see me coming around the door. he sort of shouted a little and pushed me away and started poking me.

then jaclyn and shaun came out of my room, wanting to check out the pieces of cloth as well, and while jaclyn and i were in my bathroom, i made a sudden noise, just for the fun of it and jaclyn screamed! that was even funnier. she screamed so loud that shaun backed out of the bathroom, with his hands over his ears.

its funny how a few pieces of cloth can scare the living shit out of people and let everyone have a great laugh about it--a piece of cloth. (:

sam, its almost time for me to call you already! (: handy reminders huh?

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i had alot to say two moments ago but i saw tyra fainting and it looked so real! and i forgot all i wanted to say. anyway all i remember is that i have tonnes of homework. on sort of the first day back in school! well, it is the first day of lessons, so it can still be considered first day right?

daddy left me the 150 to get the ipod! he can be so so so nice, but he's still mad at me for my two 9s. sorry! i am trying now!

mr chan was super nice to me today too. jaclyn and i decided to stay in school to study, and we had no where in school where we could actually sit down and study. so i remembered that i still had a few questions i had to go through with mr chan, and asked if we could use his classroom, and he said 'sure! no problem!' (:

so we were in his room, he was teaching me bio and jaclyn was behind doing her own stuff, when shaun walked in and mr chan was all 'ok, who is that?' and then i told him that is was shaun and the whole scenario was really funny. he taught us a little of chem too, and i actually understood it! so much better than mrs ling!

we were talking to him about teachers and favouritism as well, when he said he himself showed favouritism, i just don't notice cos he's bias towards me. haha. but that's always a good thing, you know, teachers liking you.

i'm going to watch top model a little more and then i'm off to bed! i'm tired, from head to toe, inside to outside tired. yawn!

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happy children's day!!

i had the most wonderful, most fantastic, sweetest dream ever last night! and i'll never forget it. creepily enough, it doesn't involve anyone i know now, but it seems as though the people in my dream were really good friends. it was a good dream nevertheless.(:

and daddy's not talking to me. that's really, really, really, really, really sad. bleaugh.

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things have been hell. and i mean hell. for one, daddy won't shut up about my results. going on and on and on about how disappointed he is in me. hello? newsflash: i should be the first one disappointed. what makes it worse is that just a couple of days ago i was just thinking how nice it was to have a dad who doesn't scream at me just because of lousy results. and that's exactly what he did. urrgh.

to daddy:
'oh sorry, i'm working late and won't be coming home for dinner' and going out for "work" in the middle of the night doesn't work for me, just like my lousy results don't work for you. since when did you become a work guy? i've always been so proud of the daddy that is the family guy, always spending time with us. what happened to all that time? how can you keep saying 'i will support you all the way but your results are shit' but not show that support?

does going out at ten at night and coming home after one show how much support you're willing to give me? i remember the nights where i had to hold your hand just so that i could fall asleep. you were there, every night, for me to hold your hand. yours would be the last face i saw each night before going to bed. i'd talk to you about my day and anything else under the sun until the moment i closed my eyes.

now you only come in, at 2 in the morning, dressed in your work clothes, peek around the corner of the door to check if i'd turned off the lights before sleeping. that's it. no more good night kisses and i love yous. just checking the lights. that episode, at the restaurant, earlier tonight. that's not the kind of conversations i'd like to have with you. yes i want me to study hard as much as you want me too, maybe even more. but it doesn't help for you to tell me you don't see me making any effort.

i don't see you making any effort giving us the support you so gladly offered with sweet words. even after we told you how much we miss your not being at home, there was no change. even after the hug and saying you'll try to come back earlier, we could see no change. you couldn't even buy me mooncakes. i have absolutely no idea what happened, but i'm not liking it. i don't like the fact that every conversation i've had with you over the last few days have ended in tears. i don't like how you tell me i don't understaind how you feel, when clearly you don't understand how i feel either. you've never even taken a step back to see the miscommunication constantly going on.

i don't know what's up with the tv, but it told me 'the greatest gift a father can give his child is his presence alone'. and then it said 'you will never know how a paren'ts love works until you become a parent yourself'. even the tv is talking to me! this sucks. as in i'm on the verge of giving up kind of sucky. its not nice. we have to fix it.

jaclyn: please don't be angry anymore, it was a mistake on his part, but it may not be intentional, so let it go, alright? (:

joshua: think, please.

mummy: thank you, thank you, thank you.

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